Yes, it has been a long time since I posted...such is the life of a college student who has way too much to do already, let alone take the time that should be spent working on homework or cleaning or personal hygiene ( no worries, I have a good grasp on that particular issue) or craziest thought of all....sleeping. Of course with a roommate in the picture sleep becomes a little bit more elusive than it was before. Now there is the need to talk about life, boys, school, and other things on our minds.
So since my last post I have obviously returned to my normal state of mind, even though there is still that someone missing I am more able to handle it these days. So that is the word on that topic.
School is in full force now and let me tell you I am already drowning in work. I am trying to develop relationships while still keeping my grades at the level that I expect them to be, all while also going to work Monday to Thursday nights and Saturday mornings in order to help pay for this schooling that is currently causing me to be a crazy person. It is a vicious cycle indeed.
So my new roomie is worried I am going to write about her...now I have to put this sentence in....right now she is about to fall asleep....she is cute and I think she is wonderful! (That is all on this subject for a bit)
I love a lot of my classes this semester but sometimes I feel like I am not really retaining the information. It makes me wonder about my teaching days. I know it is what I am called to but I do sometimes feel like if I can't immediately recall the names of books I read in Elementary school or the topics we specifically discussed in history I was really a fraud all through middle and high school! Clearly I have learned nothing. On the other hand there are those moments when I remember some crazy and obscure fact that I learned about the Ancient Romans (now would be a good time to come up with one but that would be too impressive) and I think, HA! I am as smart as people seem to think. It is confusing. I know that I am gifted in my learning but really when I do finally finish all of my schooling what will I remember...hopefully the important things.
I have to work out three to four times a week this semester- HA like I have time for that!- and I am getting graded on it.....what!! That sucks
My brother and sister in law sent me a scarf and cookies today, they are wonderful people. I love my siblings and their spouses, some day I will have a spouse and we will send packages to a college student in need of mail because we will remember how depressing it was to check our mailbox and have it be empty on a regular basis.
We have been talking about race in my Teaching in a Pluralistic Society class (I know, surprising to talk about race in a class with that title, right?!) and it is something that is hard for me to think about and discern what I want to contribute to the class. I come from the south, people in the south tend to be racist. I lived in the north, people in the north are just as racist but they go about it differently. I don't think about it much in my daily life but maybe I should. Just something that is on my mind a lot these days because of the reading and lectures for the class. I have enjoyed the discussion in class as well as those that take place online.( Side note: a couple of my classes have a lot of online posting assignments and sometimes I feel like an old person who doesn't understand why we have to use the internet for discussions....I find it confusing and overwhelming because people can say as much as they want and then I have to read it and figure out what they mean)
I started a new job this semester, I work in the admissions office....so that means that I spend roughly three hours on the nights that I work calling people to say:
" Hi this is Mary Claire from Covenant College, is so and so available?"
so and so's Mom: "yes she/he is! Just a second"
Great thanks! long pause......
background convo "so and so the phone is for you."
"Who is it?"
"I don't know, some college I think"
"Ok fine.....Hello"
Hi so and so this is Mary Claire from Covenant College, is now a good time to talk?
"Um, I guess."
Great, so how is the college search going? Are you still interested in Covenant/ do you know much about it
"fine I guess/ Not really, I haven't looked into it yet."
Oh, well then let me tell you some things about us......"and so on and so forth until I feel so totally uncomfortable and can feel the boredom oozing through the phone.
All this to say, if an admissions rep calls your house realize that they feel kind of awkward too and try to at least contribute a little bit to the conversation for both of y'alls sanity's sake.
I know it sounds like I don't like the job but that is not true, honestly, I kinda love it with all its uncomfortable moments....anything beats Chartwells but this is so much better than I could have ever dreamed.
God is teaching me a lot about patience these days and he is blessing me with positive reenforcement in my life through my roommate who daily makes me feel special and needed. Not to say there was no one in my life who did this before, she just have a special way of doing it that has really been a blessing. Also, he is starting to take aware my fear of never getting married, I like that a lot. God is working in me a lot and I am glad of it. I can't wait for that relationship to continue to develop as well as the others in my life.
Well now that it is past midnight and I have written a totally disjointed account of my life these days I think it is time to get some sleep...what with class at 8 in the morning and mounds of unfinished homework that was abandoned, I really do need to get some beauty rest.
