So tonight I am having the same battle/ inner fight with God that I have all the time...it is the biggest obstacle in my relationship with Him that I know and no matter what it always comes back, the devil has a good hold on my heart when it comes to this issue.....are you wondering what it is, because chances are you can guess it pretty quickly if you try. Yeah that's right, I am one of those girls who has a constant battle over being single.
I DON'T WANT TO BE THIS GIRL ANYMORE!!!!!!!!!!!!
I know that being this way is exactly why I am still struggling with this, it is the age old endless cycle. How many times have I been told "if you are just content to be single and don't think about it anymore then God will bring that man into your life." yeah that is not helpful because then you are trying to be content so that you will get a man...see it doesn't work that way. And if you do manage honestly be content for a while then that eventually goes away and you realize that you are once again very sad about being single. Then you start the process all over again and it is just frustrating.
On nights like this I miss my relationship, not my ex but the relationship....not good!
Yes, in case you are wondering, this is an emotional rant that I should probably not even post but I will anyway because I just need to get it out.
So basically that is all I have to say on the subject....please pray that this battle in my heart will be ended soon one way or another. Honestly, I am just exhausted.
ayyyyyyymen.
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