A cup of coffe and time for reflection

I am never exactly sure how to go about writing here. I want to give life updates but I don't want that to be the only thing in this blog because that is boring, I would much rather be thoughtful and contemplative in my postings so I usually end up doing a little of each I think.
Recently I have been thinking about the people in my life who have been instrumental in making me the woman I am today ( even though often I still see myself as that little girl who loved sitting in laps and being close to everyone longing for the attention of those that I loved most, which of course I always got :) ) I still think of these people as a part of my life even though they are not around for the day to day things that go on. I am able to make it through broken relationships because of their wisdom and the way that they point me to Jesus and remind me that no matter how bad things may seem at the moment I have a Savior who loves me as much as I long to be loved, and so much more. I will forever thank the Lord for blessing me with these people even though He has guided our families to different parts of the country.
Yesterday was a hard day for me, I dealt with a lot of emotions that I haven't been letting myself feel and so I was exhausted.Also, nothing went according to my plan for the day. That threw me off so badly I did not know if I would be able to cope with the stress. It is strange how sometimes your pride keeps you from admitting things, even just to yourself. I sometimes do not like to admit that I need to take time to be totally alone without anyone talking to me or even in the room so that I can deal with stress, it is a rare occasion but when I do need that it is an urgent and desperate need. Last night that need hit me as I was walking into work for the night, ugh was that a long shift! Then I came back and sat in the commons to work on homework and watch a movie without anybody around. That gave me the chance to stop and talk to God for a while too. I am so much more refreshed today because of that time and yet I feel weak when I acknowledge that I needed that time to continue on for the rest of the semester.
As I have been thinking about those that I love so much the continued refrain in my head is " I thank my God with each remembrance of you" This is true for me in so many ways, each time I think about each one of you who has played an integral part in my life I am thankful! I do not know where I would be without you but I do not that it would not be a good place, that is a lesson I learned the hard way. So for those of you reading this, know that I love each of you and thank God for you daily!

Also, this music just came onto my itunes and I wanted to put it on the end of this post because I have been thinking about this musical a lot recently. I would LOVE to see this one live, it is far and above my favorite musical ever and I plan to read the book this summer when I have the time to really enjoy it. For anyone who hasn't even heard the music or doesn't know the story, for shame! You should really become very familiar with it, there is such a great story of redemption and a great refelction of Christs love in human terms. Anyway, that is my humble opinion on the subject :)