A short freak out...just so you know going into the post what is coming.....

So I don't know if any of y'all experience this, but have you ever had that gripping feeling of panic that you can literally feel in your chest. You don't even have to be doing anything stressful, or even anything at all to get it. All it takes is one thought about everything coming up in the next few months of life and there it is. Grabbing you and making you concentrate on the problems that need solving but seem insurmountable. Yup, I am having one of those moments right now. I was just sitting at my desk in the office and doing some homework. I had finished all of my work for the afternoon and was told to study or read for the rest of my time. And all of the sudden, while I was reading "Mrs. Frisby and the Rats of NIMH" there it was: PANIC. The past week and in particular the past couple of days have been filled with questions and concerns about the future. While some were answered, thankfully, the answers brought with them a whole new set of questions. Ones that are bigger and even more nerve wracking than the old ones. AH!!